"> Rhagavan JernathanA.K.A Kutti b0i
Remember The Name!
17 this year,
NAKED ON 14 april 1993
Music & Dance are My passion`
Dun judge a book by Its Cover(:
Just to let you know;
Im an aries
Wednesday, June 2, 2010 @ 12:54 PM
Its been so long! Yea I know! But what do you expect out of someone as busy as me! Things have been on the roll for me! But not much excitement as i used to have though. Things have kinda fallen into a routine that I just follow and although monotonous, it is so damn peaceful! Sch,Cca,Home! Thats basically all I have in my Schedule! And the crazy thing is, I'm loving it! For the time being that is! Its a well deserved break from all the drama and conflicts and I intend to make the best out of it(= The sad thing about it is, although I am enjoying myself with this new life that I'm leading, I do miss my friends cause its been so long since we met! Hopefully we guys meet up soon yea? GTG!
Sunday, May 16, 2010 @ 2:00 AM
Just finished having my dinner after watching a dvd. Yes Man! hahas kinda funny movie, where all jim carrey does is say yes to everything, and his once boring life takes a dramatic turn! Went to the Library with Vishalini just nw to study. But it was so damn packed and so we decided to study at mac instead. But we ended up talking alot abt our problems and just kinda, letting things off myself. I don't know about her, but I felt better after letting all that out! Hahas so yea, since we didnt study I guess I'll be mugging the whole night tonight. Anyway, as we were leaving, I got a totally unexpected call from the last person I thought would actually bother calling! So anyways yea, talked ALOT! And it was nice, I must admit! But anyways, that person's happy, so I'm happy I guess! Went for a jog cause I felt like it. Things are kinda good nw, the tension at home has died down, which is awesome! In time I hope to earn back the trust everyone lost in me. Been studying alot and sch is getting kinda stressful! But other than that, life's fine I guess. Am I really happy? That's a whole other question!
Friday, May 7, 2010 @ 2:38 PM
Its been long. Yea I know. So much has happened, so much has taken place! & in some ways, things have gone wrong, dreadfully wrong, and I've found myself looking at history repeat itself all over again. How? Why? Where did I go wrong again? What haven't I done? Haven't I truly changed? Then, why me? So many questions. Yet no answers for any of them. Falling in love again. Going through the same heartbreaks. Hais. So much has happened, I dont even know how to describe the plight im in and the situation back at home. Was it really my fault? yea, maybe i was too gullible and that's why I was taken for a ride. Being stabbed in the back by someone I considered my closest? The feeling sucks, especially after thinking about how much I stood up for that person and went against everyone who were not in his favour. Hero? Stupid? Dumb? Unlucky? I don't know what to say or what to think. The only way out of all this shit is by losing contact with everyone? Wiping away my very existence in this hell we're living in? No i'm not talking about suicide or anything, I still haven't lost my head. But perhaps, I need a change? A smaller circle of friends? Why, just to be in a world of myself and shut everyone and everything out? Plausible? Yes. It is change I want, and I want things to take a different light. Will update whenever possible..
Wednesday, March 31, 2010 @ 1:36 AM
Sry haven't updated in a real long time ppl. Have been kinda busy and also malas to update la! Anyway, was supposed to go to panguni but ended up staying at hme instead. Either there was something wrong with my phone or the reception there seriously sucked, cause so many ppl actually tried calling me but couldn't get through! Which was so fucking wasted la! I actually wanted to go but oh well, there's always next year! I tried calling appu so many times, but I dunno wad happened to his phone also! Hais but I heard panguni this year was super boring so oh well! hahahas! And yea, the tests for my grandmother came back, and she's fine la! Hahas, honestly such a relief la! And she's back to her old self again, which was nice! So yea, and guess what, I'm in love with the most awesome girl u could ever find! Hahas, its really sudden, but oh well, we'll see hw it goes yea?(=
Friday, March 26, 2010 @ 12:42 AM
I'm seriously fucking depressed luh! Why is life such a bitch sometimes? It was so disheartening seeing my grandma in that state just now. No she isn't in the hospital or wadeva, but her doctor recently told her that her kidneys were failing and, that's really fucked up news luh. She's been there for me my whole life, and she's probably done more for me than my parents! Sure she isn't perfect, what with her constant tantrums and bickering with everyone in the house. And sometimes she can be downright inconsiderate, not even sparing a single thought for others around her who love her with all their hearts. But despite all the problems she gives her own children, she has always been there for me, without fail. When I was admitted in the hospital, it was her who was always beside me, despite her failing health. Since there wasn't a maid in my house at that time, it was always her who took the trouble to go down and buy me food that I had craving for, since I was unable to walk much. She did all of this, despite the fact that it was a serious burden to her. Love? Yes, that's what love does to a person. I was always her favourite grandson, being the first of the many grandchildren she has. Despite all the moodswings I had myself, being in the sorry state that I was in after the incident, she put up with it and gave me all the privacy I needed even though it meant she couldn't watch the tv in my room, which was the tv she prefered watching. But yet I walked out on her, and left the house just because of the constant fights that took place between her and my uncle. No, she wasn't limping or any of that sort today. But I could see that she was genuinely depressed and scared. She always puts up a brave front but today, all that gave way and showed how afraid she really was inside. And it really broke my heart seeing her like that. She was just so depressed and afraid. And I started to notice how old she really was! Slowly and bit by bit, my grandma is leaving me. I really want to be with her now more than ever, but things are just so complicated! Argh I really don't know what to do! But today I really woke up from the dream that I was always in. How naive I've been, thinking that I would always have people like my grandma and aunt around, to fall back on whenever I needed help. I'm really in tears now, but that isn't going to mean a difference or help my grandma. I pray to god that the test she took at the hospital will show that her kidneys aren't failing and she'll be fine. i want her to see me graduate and be someone in life! That's what she always wanted! It was today that I finally saw things in a totally new light. May god bless! I love you nana!
Happy Birthday Nisha!
Thursday, March 25, 2010 @ 1:14 AM
Hahahas, You're like finally 16? You must be super happy eh? Wells, just wanna wish you a really Happy Birthday aiites?! You are indeed, someone very special to me even if I'm not to you. We've had our ups and downs but we've still kept the bond! Sometimes I piss you off and simply irritate the shit out of ya, but I love ya aiites?! Hahas and dun you worry, i'll get you smth even though I'm like fucking broke right now! Sweet right I? Hahas, I'm sure you'll be getting lots of presents since you're so loved by everyone around you! Dun forget that my birthday is coming up aiites? Hahas so yea, just enjoy yourself on this special day! Sorry I didnt send you a long message! I find it easier to express my PEELINGS through my blog babe! Hahas Happy Birthday Anus Hole! I Love Ya Many Many!(=
Tuesday, March 23, 2010 @ 7:47 PM
I have successfully been matriculated! Its honestly such a relief la! In simple terms I've been guaranteed a place in Singapore Poly. Hahas so all that's left to do now is to head down to the enrolment centre to collect my student card and other stuff, on the 29th. And have I mentioned that I can't wait for school to start? Hahas countless times ryte? But honestly, new friends, new experiences, new life! So it has got me pretty perked up! So anyways, will be meeting up with suria tmrw as he misses me I guess? Or maybe I'm just a great person to hang out with? Muahahahs thick skined eh? So since i seriously need to cut my hair, I'll just get him to follow me and give me some ideas as to what hair styles I can try out? And yea, I suddenly wanna dye my hair. Brown? Red? Dunno luh,will decide after my poly starts. Got a prank call tdy. And instead of pissing me off, it really made me laugh la. I mean, firstly, the girl(she spoke) used her own number. Which was kinda stupid don't u think? And she kept talking in this weird accent, asking whether I wanted tissue paper for a dollar. She just kept asking me that question and even through messages. But sooner or later it just became super lame laq, and I think she got bored of it too. Hahahas but she did manage to cheer me up la!(= (and I just realised that I usually end my post with a smiley face!)