"> Rhagavan JernathanA.K.A Kutti b0i
Remember The Name!
17 this year,
NAKED ON 14 april 1993
Music & Dance are My passion`
Dun judge a book by Its Cover(:
Just to let you know;
Im an aries
Wednesday, March 31, 2010 @ 1:36 AM
Sry haven't updated in a real long time ppl. Have been kinda busy and also malas to update la! Anyway, was supposed to go to panguni but ended up staying at hme instead. Either there was something wrong with my phone or the reception there seriously sucked, cause so many ppl actually tried calling me but couldn't get through! Which was so fucking wasted la! I actually wanted to go but oh well, there's always next year! I tried calling appu so many times, but I dunno wad happened to his phone also! Hais but I heard panguni this year was super boring so oh well! hahahas! And yea, the tests for my grandmother came back, and she's fine la! Hahas, honestly such a relief la! And she's back to her old self again, which was nice! So yea, and guess what, I'm in love with the most awesome girl u could ever find! Hahas, its really sudden, but oh well, we'll see hw it goes yea?(=
Friday, March 26, 2010 @ 12:42 AM
I'm seriously fucking depressed luh! Why is life such a bitch sometimes? It was so disheartening seeing my grandma in that state just now. No she isn't in the hospital or wadeva, but her doctor recently told her that her kidneys were failing and, that's really fucked up news luh. She's been there for me my whole life, and she's probably done more for me than my parents! Sure she isn't perfect, what with her constant tantrums and bickering with everyone in the house. And sometimes she can be downright inconsiderate, not even sparing a single thought for others around her who love her with all their hearts. But despite all the problems she gives her own children, she has always been there for me, without fail. When I was admitted in the hospital, it was her who was always beside me, despite her failing health. Since there wasn't a maid in my house at that time, it was always her who took the trouble to go down and buy me food that I had craving for, since I was unable to walk much. She did all of this, despite the fact that it was a serious burden to her. Love? Yes, that's what love does to a person. I was always her favourite grandson, being the first of the many grandchildren she has. Despite all the moodswings I had myself, being in the sorry state that I was in after the incident, she put up with it and gave me all the privacy I needed even though it meant she couldn't watch the tv in my room, which was the tv she prefered watching. But yet I walked out on her, and left the house just because of the constant fights that took place between her and my uncle. No, she wasn't limping or any of that sort today. But I could see that she was genuinely depressed and scared. She always puts up a brave front but today, all that gave way and showed how afraid she really was inside. And it really broke my heart seeing her like that. She was just so depressed and afraid. And I started to notice how old she really was! Slowly and bit by bit, my grandma is leaving me. I really want to be with her now more than ever, but things are just so complicated! Argh I really don't know what to do! But today I really woke up from the dream that I was always in. How naive I've been, thinking that I would always have people like my grandma and aunt around, to fall back on whenever I needed help. I'm really in tears now, but that isn't going to mean a difference or help my grandma. I pray to god that the test she took at the hospital will show that her kidneys aren't failing and she'll be fine. i want her to see me graduate and be someone in life! That's what she always wanted! It was today that I finally saw things in a totally new light. May god bless! I love you nana!
Happy Birthday Nisha!
Thursday, March 25, 2010 @ 1:14 AM
Hahahas, You're like finally 16? You must be super happy eh? Wells, just wanna wish you a really Happy Birthday aiites?! You are indeed, someone very special to me even if I'm not to you. We've had our ups and downs but we've still kept the bond! Sometimes I piss you off and simply irritate the shit out of ya, but I love ya aiites?! Hahas and dun you worry, i'll get you smth even though I'm like fucking broke right now! Sweet right I? Hahas, I'm sure you'll be getting lots of presents since you're so loved by everyone around you! Dun forget that my birthday is coming up aiites? Hahas so yea, just enjoy yourself on this special day! Sorry I didnt send you a long message! I find it easier to express my PEELINGS through my blog babe! Hahas Happy Birthday Anus Hole! I Love Ya Many Many!(=
Tuesday, March 23, 2010 @ 7:47 PM
I have successfully been matriculated! Its honestly such a relief la! In simple terms I've been guaranteed a place in Singapore Poly. Hahas so all that's left to do now is to head down to the enrolment centre to collect my student card and other stuff, on the 29th. And have I mentioned that I can't wait for school to start? Hahas countless times ryte? But honestly, new friends, new experiences, new life! So it has got me pretty perked up! So anyways, will be meeting up with suria tmrw as he misses me I guess? Or maybe I'm just a great person to hang out with? Muahahahs thick skined eh? So since i seriously need to cut my hair, I'll just get him to follow me and give me some ideas as to what hair styles I can try out? And yea, I suddenly wanna dye my hair. Brown? Red? Dunno luh,will decide after my poly starts. Got a prank call tdy. And instead of pissing me off, it really made me laugh la. I mean, firstly, the girl(she spoke) used her own number. Which was kinda stupid don't u think? And she kept talking in this weird accent, asking whether I wanted tissue paper for a dollar. She just kept asking me that question and even through messages. But sooner or later it just became super lame laq, and I think she got bored of it too. Hahahas but she did manage to cheer me up la!(= (and I just realised that I usually end my post with a smiley face!)
Saturday, March 20, 2010 @ 10:21 PM
This guy is seriously awesome la! Slash! I seriously love this particular song of his. He honestly has mad skills luh! Nothing much to blog about today since I was home the whole day, watching movies and all. So yea, just enjoy this video!(=
Friday, March 19, 2010 @ 8:43 PM
Damn being sick really sucks! I was fine yesterday but damn sick nw! Why?! So anyways, didn't blog yesterday cause I was too damned tired and slept early. I woke up at like 10, when I slept so damn late. So imagine hw tired I would have felt?! So anyways, met up with siva near petir lrt and headed to sch to collect our testimonial and cert. Brandon came along too since he hadn't collected his. Saw some ppl I had no intention of seeing, which was a real turn off. After collecting, waited for brandon under his block while he went up and kept the cert at hme. We then took a bus to Bukit Timah plaza to play pool. Hahas wasn't my idea but I did enjoy it la. After a few hours, headed back to bp to collect sme stuff and then took a bus home. My uncle suddenly had a craving to eat seafood so we headed to a restaurant at Sembawang and ate alot luh! There was just so much food to eat, but we managed to finish everything.xD After eating, went over to sembawang park for awhle and den headed back hme close to midnight? Went straight to bed... Woke up today feeling horrible! Fever,Flu,Sore throat! Spent the day resting at hme. Suri and Safinah came under my blk to meet me for awhile and he bought me another shirt!(=
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 @ 11:29 PM
Just so that I've clarified it with everyone, its Weird and not Wierd( see my previous posts) Hahas so now I know thanks to Tiger Siva. Lol so anyways, was supposed to meet up with linky and siva but thanks to nisha, I couldn't wake up on time, and ended up sleeping till 4 I think? Like WTF?! My whole day wasted sia! Hahas at least I scared the shit out of her before I hung up. Told her a super freaky ghost story, made up by me of cause! And kept shouting PONTIANAK PONTIANAK! Damn, I hope she pissed in her pants. So yea, thanks to her my whole day was wasted so I decided to just watch a movie or smth when suria called and told me that he and the gang would be coming to see me under my block. So got ready and went down to meet them. Hahas nt bad luh, I had fun talking absolute rubbish with them and went hme around 8 and had my dinner. And have been using the comp till now. Hahahs wad the hell am I supposed to do? Dying of boredom! Have to head over to my secondary school tmrw to collect my o level cert and my testimonial. Will be going with siva since linky can't make it. But oh well, I miss tiger like hell so I'm sure we'll have fun.(=
Tuesday, March 16, 2010 @ 9:49 PM
Hahahas just look at this retarded pic of my dearest Nisha? And she even found this pic cool? Was simply dumbfounded when I first saw this pic luh. But I just had to have it! So I took it from her phone without her knowledge. I bet she has probably forgotten about this pic but as they say, old is gold yea? Hahas since she wants me to blog about her so badly, I hope she enjoys this post! LaLaLa! But she really is a sweetheart luh, and someone special to me. She's wierd and a little slow but who bothers yea? Its what's on the inside that matters! Lol so yea, break her heart and I'll brk your face aiites?! I rmb her telling me that she wanted to sayang me when I was admitted in the hospital?! Hahahas! Wierd but oh well, its the thought that matters right? So Nisha I hope u just LOVE me for this post aiites? You're loved girl!(=
@ 1:27 AM
I'm just so goddamned pissed off right now. I mean, why the hell must a person lie so much, just so that he or she can get sympathy from others? I mean, dat seriously is a low down thing to do. So wad do u expect in return for all those lies? People to like you more? That's just pathetic luh, and I'm seriously disgusted that you'll go through such means just to be liked. As for me, I'd rather be hated for who I am than be liked for who I'm not. I'm not perfect, but no one is! So I just really hope that you have indeed, changed for the better. Anyways, lets just forget about that shall we? Had lots of fun today after a real long time. Met suri and gang arnd 4 and appu came along to pass me some stuff. Sat dwn and just talked alot. And Suriya bought me a damn nice shirt from spade! Its seriously damn nice luh! Thanks so much for the birthday gift lil bro! Means alot to me and I'll really rmb all the help that you've dne for me so far da! After awhile, took a bus to amk cause appu had to collect his wallet frm his hse, so all of us tagged along since we had nth to do whatsoever. Left amk after he got his wallet and took a bus back hme. Everyone agreed to take a bus with me back to yishun before going home, which was damn sweet luh! Hahas had fun in the bus talking absolute shit! Hahas was a fun day indeed(=
Friday, March 12, 2010 @ 6:05 PM
Back with yet another post! Hahahas, I'm sry but I just can't seem to get this intro part right. I mean, what do I say? I'm back? Yo? Hello? Randomness:/ Anyways was supposed to go to a temple at tekha today, with appu, devi and shaaru. But I backed out in the last min cause I'm goddamned tired! Slept abt 5 plus in the morning? Was busy watching videos on youtube. Hahas so yea, I'm like damn tired from the lack of slp and I think I'm going to be sick. Maybe I'm suffering from hyperchondria?(someone who always thinks he's sick even though he isn't). Hahas that was what my form teacher last year said I was suffering from, because of my terrible attendance and the lame excuses I give her for not coming to sch. But no seriously, I really am having a slight fever this time so I'm just going to stay at hme and rest. And have I mentioned that I just can't wait for school to start? Hahahs as wierd as it sounds, I actually miss studying like hell! Buhbye.
Thursday, March 11, 2010 @ 2:03 AM
Finally have time to post! Its been long i know, but time and tide waits for no one and so I had other stuff to get done first luh. Recently someone told me that in life, we can't depend on anyone. You can't depend on the hopeless and wait for miracles to happen. We just got to take advantage of whatever we have and make the best of it yea? As for me, I ain't got any parents to depend on. The only ones that are behind me now are my aunt and uncle. But am I wallowing in self pity? No, in fact, I'm just thankful that I've at least got sme one to depend on? Being independent at a young age isn't as bad as it sounds. I'm just going to make use of whatever I have and make the best out of it. Sometimes I curse my rotten luck, for having such a miserable life that are just full of uncertainities. But then again, when I really sit down and reflect, I realise that I could be a lot worst off. Having so many uncertainities in my life aint that bad afteall. In fact, they make me even more determined than ever to excell and make something out of myself. Yea, I'm just one tough act to follow! So anyways, tdy was kinda fun. Went to my uncle's office with uncle Joe and while they both did some work I just spent my time listening to songs and taking pics around the 7th floor, where the office was btw. The building looked haunted luh! It was like the buildings frm those japanese horror movies. Hahas asked uncle Joe and he told me that the building was at least 30 years old? There are bound to be a few ghosts lurking about ryte? Tried to capture a ghost on a photo, to no avail. So yea, left the office close to 12 and came straight hme. Asked my uncle whether he had any vacancies in his office, for a secretary maybe? Hahas wouldn't mind being a clerk or smth! I'm just gonna fade away now....
Monday, March 8, 2010 @ 8:45 PM
Back with another post again. Headed down to acer to service my laptop just now. Damn it was a long wait and in the end the guy said he couldn't get it done by today but needed a few more days. So yea, got to wait until they msg me so that I can go dwn and collect my laptop. Devi and Appu were at causeway the whole afternoon I guess. Too bad I was held up for so long at the service centre. Maybe I'll meet up with them another time. Hopefully soon. Reached hme about 6 plus and just spent my time listening to music. Until now... And so it continues...
@ 12:44 AM
My fav song! Hahas damn nice luh this song! If only i could play the guitar like that!(=
Sunday, March 7, 2010 @ 11:06 PM
I'm so in love with this song now! Thanks to Appu who introduced it to me la! Hahas he was singing it the whole day yesterday and today it's my turn!(=
@ 10:24 PM
Sry haven't posted in a long time. Have been kinda caught up with other stuff so yea. Anyways, had lots of fun yesterday! Went to west coast park with Appu and Devi. Devi didn;t really have to cme but since it was super long since we last met, thought it would be fun to have her around too. Anyways, took a train to clementi with Devi and met up with Appu and Kattai. Took a cab frm there to west coast park since we were nt reallyy keen about taking a bus there. Oh yea, didn't mention why we went there in the first place yea? Hahas, was the birthday for one of a close friend of mine so yea, he was having a barbeque over there. There were alot of ppl but didnt really spend time with the rest. Instead sat down at a bench away from the barbeque pit and talked with devi and appu. Appu wasn't feeling so well either so we just sat there till he vomited and finally felt better! Food poisoning maybe? Dunno uh. Anyways, left abt 10 plus and took some pictures before heading back hme. Hahas had a blast la! Anyways spent the whole day today, listening to songs and finding for nice songs to download. Nt bad luh, kinda tired to go anywhere too so dsn't matter. And Shamu Kuttie suddenly posted a comment in my facebook wall saying that she hated me and I was totally caught of guard la. I mean I was wondering wtf I had done for her to hate me? Sent her a long msg saying I was sorry if I did anything wrong or if I had not seen she and the gang for a real long time and that turned out to be the reason luh. She called me, saying she just felt sad that I haven;t met her in like a real long time. 5 months I guess? So yea, told her that I'll meet her and the gang in like a week or so and that settled it... Hahas she's such a funny ass la! But she's someone who means alot to me so yea. Anyways, need to head over to the acer building tmrw to get my laptop fixed before sch starts. Wad a life eh?
Thursday, March 4, 2010 @ 5:59 PM
Just came back hme from my Grandma's hse. Its been quite sme time since I last saw her, so decided to pop in and pay her a visit. Talked a little and yea, just came back hme. Did my online enrolment last night. Was pretty unexpected but aunt wanted me to finish off the enrolment process so yea, got everything done. Now all that's left is to go online on the 22 of this month and check out when I have to go down to SP to collect my student card and to get my laptop checked and stuff. Damn I just can't wait for sch to start sia. I suddenly have an urge to study. Probably because I've been hme for so long? Its been 5 months of waiting so its kind of expected I guess. Anyways, going to take a short nap for awhile now. I'm dead tired so yea, will blog soon.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010 @ 11:25 PM
Sorry for the really late post! Have been so damn busy for these bpast two days. Been travelling alot getting lots of things done! Lets start with tuesday yea? Woke up early in the morning and headed down to SP to get all my enrollment stuff done. Me and my aunt completed the various documents and submitted them at the Student Service Centre. After we spent nearly 2 hours over there, we took a train down to woodlands and headed down to SATA at woodlands to get my medical checkup over and done with. We managed to get everything done for the enrollment, so all that's left now is the online enrollment and then i'm done! Reached home in the evening and headed to bed early. Today, woke up early as today was my Dad's visiting like finally! Its been 5 months since I last saw him! Wanted to take a train there but was feeling horrible in the morning. Was vomitting and feeling really sick. So after resting a while and taking my medicine, took a cab and headed to Changi! The visit was gd, although he was really upset about all the things that I was going through... But oh well, just hope that he will be back with us soon... Went to balestier and packed lots of food hme! Bak Kut Teh rocked!!! Hahahas, gonna head to bed now! Tired...
Monday, March 1, 2010 @ 11:16 PM
Had fun in BP with Afifah MIAMI and Yuwan just now. Went to the cc to get my singpass and after that headed to meet afifah and just sat down and talked. Hahas had fun irritating the shit out of her! After that, followed yuwan to get his hair cut. Irritated Afifah smemore while we waited for him! Wanted to go for my class bbq but decided against it since it was going to rain and thus, took a bus home instead. Tmrw morning need to head over to SP with my aunt, to get my enrolment stuff done. Hais I just can't wait for this enrolment shit to be over and for sch to just start luh!
AFIFAH MIAMI IS CRAZY!!!
@ 1:32 PM
Just woke up! Gona get ready and go to BP to get my damn singpass... Damn!