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Sunday, May 16, 2010 @ 2:00 AM

Just finished having my dinner after watching a dvd. Yes Man! hahas kinda funny movie, where all jim carrey does is say yes to everything, and his once boring life takes a dramatic turn! Went to the Library with Vishalini just nw to study. But it was so damn packed and so we decided to study at mac instead. But we ended up talking alot abt our problems and just kinda, letting things off myself. I don't know about her, but I felt better after letting all that out! Hahas so yea, since we didnt study I guess I'll be mugging the whole night tonight. Anyway, as we were leaving, I got a totally unexpected call from the last person I thought would actually bother calling! So anyways yea, talked ALOT! And it was nice, I must admit! But anyways, that person's happy, so I'm happy I guess! Went for a jog cause I felt like it. Things are kinda good nw, the tension at home has died down, which is awesome! In time I hope to earn back the trust everyone lost in me. Been studying alot and sch is getting kinda stressful! But other than that, life's fine I guess. Am I really happy? That's a whole other question!

Friday, May 7, 2010 @ 2:38 PM

Its been long. Yea I know. So much has happened, so much has taken place! & in some ways, things have gone wrong, dreadfully wrong, and I've found myself looking at history repeat itself all over again. How? Why? Where did I go wrong again? What haven't I done? Haven't I truly changed? Then, why me? So many questions. Yet no answers for any of them. Falling in love again. Going through the same heartbreaks. Hais. So much has happened, I dont even know how to describe the plight im in and the situation back at home. Was it really my fault? yea, maybe i was too gullible and that's why I was taken for a ride. Being stabbed in the back by someone I considered my closest? The feeling sucks, especially after thinking about how much I stood up for that person and went against everyone who were not in his favour. Hero? Stupid? Dumb? Unlucky? I don't know what to say or what to think. The only way out of all this shit is by losing contact with everyone? Wiping away my very existence in this hell we're living in? No i'm not talking about suicide or anything, I still haven't lost my head. But perhaps, I need a change? A smaller circle of friends? Why, just to be in a world of myself and shut everyone and everything out? Plausible? Yes. It is change I want, and I want things to take a different light. Will update whenever possible..